Random Ramblings

Sooooo I forgot my login for my xanga and I used up all my emails for previous xangas. Now I am using blogspot. I guess its ok. Its something new. I was pretty upset though cause I came home last night and I felt like blogging and I couldn't log in. I'm like wtf?! Then I sighed and did nothing. Now its Saturday night and I'm sitting at home deciding whether or not I should watch Juno. You know, I don't think its so bad to be home on a Friday or Saturday night. It's just...society gives you this notion that you're a "loser" if you stay home on a Friday or Saturday. Oh well.

Hmmm so on Thursday I was at Target and I was looking at the video game section and then one of the associates who I assume is about 15 or 16 comes up to me and says "can I help you sir?" Nothing harmful right? With the exception of the word SIR. It made me feel really old. I'm 19 going on 20 in 2 days. I'm no longer a teen. Its like whoa! Where did the time go? So when that guy said that it just got me thinking "dang, 1/5th of my life is over" Yes, I plan to live to be 100. haha. So immediately after Target I went home and shaved to make myself feel younger. Look young, feel young, be young! Of course, people older will say that I still am relatively young and I shouldn't complain. I.E my parents.

Hmmmm, so theres this girl. Lets call her Angelina Jolie. We've been getting to know each other over the last month and theres always some sort of roadblock that we encounter. I'm thinking to myself wth?! Why are all these road blocks arriving so early? It shouldn't be this difficult so early on. Going into this situation I had doubts but I'd figure I'd take a risk so that I won't ever wonder what if you know? I feel this is a risk worth taking cause this girls pretty cool/chill. I tell myself, if I didn't like Angelina then I wouldn't put up w/ all this drama so early on and that all this will be worth it someday. I dunno though. I'm confused just as much is she is. Or at least I think? No risk no reward right? Things seldom work out exactly the way you want but you never know. We'll see how things transpire. In the end, you just have to trust that whatever's suppose to happen will happen. Easier said then done though.

Hmmm I guess thats all for now. My goal is to blog at least twice a week. Hopefully I can manage to do so.