I had a lot of lightbulbs light up this weekend. I was going to include it in my previous post but I know that when there is a large amount of text, I tend to not read it all. Anyways...

I feel like, I've been worrying so much about the future that I'm forgetting to enjoy the present. I'm content with where I'm at and I'll worry about the future when it comes. So Sylvia came by to the apartment last night and she's in a completely different mindset as I am. She's a year younger then me and she's graduating early. She wants to stay live in Davis another year, work/intern, and go to law school. When she was explaining to me her aspirations, I felt that she was just speeding through everything, not happy, and ultimately not enjoying the now. Don't get me wrong though, its very admirable of her for getting her stuff together and knowing what she wants. And since her little sister is at UCSD now, its tough for her parents to accommodate for the both of them. She has always been one to make sacrifices for her family which is very endearing and I commend her for that.

I'm not naive or stupid. If an opportunity presents itself I will take it. I figure, whats the hurry? I've gained this reputation among some of my people I've encountered here that I'm lazy and don't have any ambitions or goals which is completely the opposite. I know exactly what I want. We're gonna be working for the rest of our lives. Life is short. Why not take some time to do something you have a passion for? I want to help people. I've looked into the peace corp and americorp. I feel like that could be a viable option for me after I graduate. I'll be making very little to no money but I would be doing something that would be so gratifying.

Ralph Waldo Emerson said it best. "...to know that even one life has breathed easier because you lived -- this is to have succeeded" As for after that, who knows? Things seldom work out the way you plan. I'll worry about it out then.