I told Darwin about her when I got back on Sunday. He took it a lot better than I thought he would. Or so I thought. Earlier today he told me it bothers him and it makes him uncomfortable. I'm not surprised nor angry at him. I expected him to react that way when I initially told him. After Darwin and I discussed it, I went to her place to talk about it, and now she's having doubts because she doesn't want to break up a friendship. It's a shitty position to be in. I tend to date girls who have no future. Either they were graduating and moving far away, I was moving, they weren't completely over their ex, or they're just stupid. It's not just some stupid crush. I wish it was. But I do genuinely do like this person and I could see it potentially going somewhere. I would never intentionally hurt him and knowing that I did...blows. Right now its kind of awkward. Him staying at my apartment for 2 weeks just compounds the situation. The last thing I want is to lose him as a friend. But I also don't want to lose her over exterior factors that has nothing to do with us? I don't know if that made sense. I'll just wait a couple days and see how everything plays out. In a perfect world he would support me and be ok with it. I mean, in my perfect world. In his perfect world, he'd be playing pro soccer and have an endless amount of hoisin sauce. Too bad we're living in a stupid real world with all these guidelines and rules.
I'm in quite a pickle. And I hate pickles. Literally and figuratively. With the exception of relish.
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